It's Doing.

I have been trained to be focused and make my eye single. I was trained to be bold and to a great extent I am. However the world view me as a coward.

Not long after I graduated from the university many folks asked if I was in any platonic relationship with any ladies and the answered was and still no. they all jumped into conclusion that I was afraid to approach ladies. Perhaps I was!

In one of my random thoughts I asked myself sincerely if I could express myself in front of any damsel! I knew I could it but in order to clear any element of doubts deep down the recess of my heart I made up my mind to start asking ladies out just for the fun of it. Lol 

One day while coming from the school where I used to do part-time teaching, was fortunate to sit beside a melanin adorned damsel. Since I wanted to test my confidence level, I approached her not minding other passengers in the bus. After series of persuasion I got her mobile phone number.

 If Im not mistaken, never called the number more than once. After all I didnt collect her number because I have interest in her. Just did to test whether peoples perception of me was true.

Of course I should have known they were all wrong. When I was running my first degree, I do get ladies number. But trust me I never called any of them more than once or at most two times. Maybe they are not beautiful!

 Trust me they are. But starting an affair then was not just my thing. Moreover I felt not satisfy with any of them. Like I said earlier they endowed with beauty. That means my non-satisfaction wasnt premise on beauty. I often tell people in my circle that I dont just start an affair because of choice.

People perceived me to be a coward because I didnt have girlfriend.  I nearly believe it until I confirmed it that Im bold. People perception of you may not necessarily be who you are! However when you keep listening to them repeatedly you begin to act as such.

I cant be judged now that me not having a girl friend is due to lack of confidence. I am sure now that Im confident.
When you keep on listening to pessimistic pep talk, in no distant time you begin to act in like manner.
Confidence is not about being right all the time. Its about letting go of fear of being wrong.

You can think about it over and over again but until you take a step to do it we cant still believe that you can actually do it. Confidence is in doing.
 Pastor Chris once said, you cant win a raffle draw without buying a ticket. Doing that thing you most fear is confidence! One thing I do is that I do what I fear.

When I was in secondary school, there was this girl who I will refer to as Angelina in this context. I overheard some guys discussion that she was too a hard nut to crack for any guy. Too hard to hard to crack or what?

I didnt need a girlfriend but for the fact it was rumored that she was a hard nut, I was interested in her adventure. However, my mother factor would not just permit me to have girlfriend. Because they dared not come to our house looking for Odunayo. I did a little findings about the girl.

I was told shes related to Professor Wole Soyinka because being a non-native speaker she speaks like a native speaker. I summoned courage and went to their house one Sunday evening.

 Their house! Yes, I said earlier I did my findings well and part of what I gathered is that her parent were not always around on Sundays.

I wasn't disappointed at all when I got there because everything I heard about her were all true. I was in their house for two hours talking. I eventually did what they said no guy can do. I broke the too hard a nut to crack. Since I was not interested in having girlfriend I didnt play with her emotion before I let go of her. I took that quantum leap because of what I heard about her.

Theres no better way to build confidence than to do what you fear. Take that quantum action of writing that book you aspire to write.
 Break out of your shell.
Till we meet again, I remain AKERELE Odunayo Samuel.
Remember keep being you and keep being good.

© OdunayoSam, 2019.